looking at old crypto wallets is the most depressing shit ever

I looked at wallets from 5+ years ago... I have over 10bnb locked up in a contract I set for 40 years (smh I know), I see reminders of all the crypto traders I know who are probably long gone now who used to be friends who I am out of contact with or are probably gone forever, I see all the money (over 100k) destroyed by ftx and sbfs trading against his own customers.

I haven't looked in a long time because it hurts so much.

I'd rather be a crypto noob because then I'd be blissfully ignorant to how brutal things get.

I had a big trump coin wallet that revived me for a bit because I got in early enough but as we all know the melania coin made it draw down. I tried to rebuild again with a hype long but 10/10 destroyed that too.

For the first time ever I have pretty much given up hope in crypto and I've been in it since early 2010s.

I'm not saying it'll never pump again a bit, but I don't think there will ever be another mega bull run for it like we have had in the past. I am pretty much zeroed out and have to become a normie now (and I have nothing to show for resume too). At least it was fun in the moment.